just a wish after all

I'm really really tired of a lot of things. I've done a little research on a wish vs hope and I think I've come to realize that some of the hopes I had were actually just wishes all along. Major bummer for me. So now I'm kind of going through the grieving part that comes with a realization of something that will never be. I'm kind of mad about it, actually I'm really mad about it. So I'm bitter, and anything that has to do with this particular topic just gets magnified beyond belief. I realize I have to get past this someday and the sooner the better but right now I hurt. So I'm angry and am lashing out about it. I'm mad at stupidity and lack of understanding for my perspective. So I'm just mad for now I guess. Sucks!